Recently I was able to get away for a couple of days to just sit with Jesus. He challenged me at the start of this year to be more vulnerable with him. I realized that part of that meant giving him time to speak and for me to engage and let emotions be without having to work in a time frame. The time is a bit awkward at first and I can feel insecure in how to use the time, but the reality is that we have a relationship and once I let go having to do it “the right way” I began to just enjoy.
The second time I asked Him what does He want to say. After some moments of silence, I just began to write. These words challenged me and provided some good reflection. May He also speak to you.
We do not need to be silent. How do we live our faith out loud? The Kingdom of God is here, in this place, in this time. The season is now. We need to cultivate the soil and be ready to sow. How many seeds will you sow? What presents me from growing spiritually? What presents me from seeing breakthroughs in other peoples’ lives? Do I believe that all things are moveable with faith?
Truth is offensive. The Bible will offend. To live as a citizen of heaven in counter culture. We will not live like others. We will stand out as different. Am I okay with that? How much effort am I putting it to keep status quo. Who is your God? Will we live to please God or man? I am tired of making excuses of what I am not doing, aren’t you? Is it really because I can’t? Jesus did not say it would be easy. Why do I cower? Why am I afraid? May this oppression, this stronghold of my flesh, my sin, be broken in the name of Jesus.
Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Am I ready for the King to return? What will he find? That I have buried my talent and played it safe? Please no. That I have disregarded his messages? That I have been too busy with a new spouse? new oxen? Or to buy a loved one? Are we tired of excuses? What is that we believe in?
Your life demonstrates what you believe. Are we tired of being lukewarm, average, when it comes to the gospel? I confess I play it safe. I can talk and say all the right things, but at the end of the day how to I live? Is it ice cream and Netflix? How hungry am I see to the Lord? To Know him?
After Jesus fed the 5000, he gave a teaching of what it meant for him to be the bread of life in John 6. In verse 66, is says, “After this many of his disciples turned back and no longer walked with him. So Jesus said to the twelve, “Do you want to go away as well?” Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life, and we have believed and have come to know that you are the Holy One of God.”
What kind of disciple are you? What are you waiting for? What does a step of faith look like? Or are we just waiting for someone else to do it, fix it? There is no room for passivity. Even in our waiting we are active. We are seeking, crying out, sowing seed, testing soil…sitting with Jesus.